Why am i still alive

Adolescence can be really hellish. :\ The only reassurance I can give you is that adulthood is a lot less bad, if you can make it. Godspeed, and I hope all the mean people contract syphilis

You are strong; there are better people.. you haven't met them yet, but you will. Until then, take care of your own contentment. Maybe talk to your Bf about how you really feel.. you need the truth. If someone makes you cry so much, cut the cord - your health matters too. When people devalue you, they're not your people. Alone is better than with the wrong kind of company. Alone is never really "alone". Other people may feel the same way and go through similar things.. so.. step into your better life head high - you're not alone, and you are still stronger for choosing to remain a great person :) 💙