I Just Need To Vent

Today has been awful, working on the wards with "suspect" covid-19. A patient I had been looking after had previously been walking around and chatting, now lying there unconscious, gasping for breath and now on end of life. I just broke down after seeing her in such a state.

The news said we would start getting tested this weekend, matron says not until next week because we are low risk. 95% of our staff are off ill however and we have had confirmed cases previously.

We are not allowed to wear the gowns and masks when patients are just suspected, I feel so vulnerable and uncared for.