I'm very upset right now.

It's been like 4 days since I tried adjusting my sleep pattern from 4am to 12pm to 10pm to 6am and it's always a failure

On my first night I only slept for 3 hrs, 10pm to 1am.

Second night another 3 hrs 11pm to 2am.

3rd day is much better which is 6 hrs from 9pm to 3am.

But tonight I only got 2hrs I slept 10pm and woke up 12am.

It's currently 1am, 1 hr since I woke up and I'm very upset. At first I'm being optimistic saying my body is adjusting so it's normal, and its probably still whats happening now but being awake everyday for over 20 hrs with only getting little sleep is not fun, my energy levels are so low, I'm very sleep deprived where my vision isn't working for me sometimes I see double and when its dark I can't see very much and I always course the day with zombie brain its not fun and with problems also happening to me right now it's very overwhelming. I'm legit here at my balcony just finished crying getting angry at myself for now not being able to sleep a little longer and now posting here coz I'm frustrated and have no one to tell to. Also why here in balcony I'm legit already zombie brained even I just woke up an hour ago.