How do you do it?

@Bleak oh, thank you for saying that and I agree I’ve experienced a lot of pain in my life and years and years of grieving it gets better I never really forget what happened and how you lost people for your love, and those deaths are always going to be a stain on your soul but with time it does get better and my mother has always said that to me this too shall pass, and my grandmother said it to her and my college roommate in the dorm she had a little frame with a print out that her mother gave to her and that something they always said, and it’s just really touching that. You’re a complete stranger and it really hit close to me. Thank you .

@LittleLonely You are most welcome.
In my life I have witnessed complete strangers to be of utmost help. I would count it as a blessing.

And thanks for the bc. 😊

@RuyLopez I like to think back to the memories of their bloody faces because it helps me get over my PTSD and sometimes I still pick glass out of my hands and out of my arm and I like to run my fingers over the scars sometimes I fall asleep, listening to the screams, sometimes I go down the road where it happened and I put my car in park and scream and relive that wreck and sometimes when I am on the highway and I see a wreck I slow down and I don’t pretend I’m not looking I look I gawk I want to see the blood as if I’m Soldier coming home from war, playing GTA or call of duty I understand what you mean about the wreck watching. It’s like anything else that’s traumatic you know being bullied having a miscarriage fucking killing someone by mistake, these are all just examples, but I think the important message here is that we look and we address head on we don’t hide from it. We don’t put our heads in the sand we say hello I’m looking at you.

@LittleLonely When you lose someone there is no real choice. You keep moving forward. That is how life is.

@1490wayb I can understand why people would say that it does help to move along with someone else, and I have done it before. We’ve all heard the phrase get under somebody to get over somebody. I’ve done that before and maybe at that time it helped me heal back in college sure you know it was the right thing to do a coping mechanism however, at this time in my life, middle-aged, more fragile yet stronger with wisdom experience … improbably just not ready to get back out there, because I want to make room for my heart before I try to get somebody else right back in my life again you know