Have you ever found true love in your life? If yes where? If not Do you think you will ever find it?

@looping you're still very young why do you think you won't find anyone?

@toughbaby2 i have a tendency to push people away when they're trying to help or get close. plus subconsciously i find myself viewing the people that do like me (romantically) to be disgusting. thinking "why would someone chose to like me. they have to be sick in the head or something" that's obviously my own fault but it comes from a deep rooted hatred i have for myself. that's all to say i'm not really the kind of person who tries in life. so getting to the bottom of these feelings and actually attempting to correct them is completely off the table for me. too much effort

@looping This all sounds very familiar to me too. This is also reason I doubt finding anyone. I recently found out I am avoidant attachment style.. I hate being this way and I would love to become more receptive for love. I wish your heart to open and find beauty and value in yourself again❤️