How do I find the life I want to be living?

| love board games. I never get to play them. I don’t have friends, and my boyfriend refuses. Tonight i dragged my boyfriend out to my coworkers birthday (had to beg) to have a few drinks and i finally got to play boardgames. He wouldnt play. It was the most fun ive had in a long, long time. Then we leave and go to our same seedy dive bar where they start doing coke and do the same routine of bathroom- beer - cigarette - repeat, and I sit at a table doing nothing but getting drunker. I dont enjoy that anymore.
I dont know if i ever did. I want boardgames.