I Think About Death

It's a lot easier to just think about than to just do. Many years have passed and the thought crosses my mind at least once a day, leaving that is. I stay here, waiting, for what, I have no clue, at this point it just seems stupid now. I don't mean going, that is the only thing that seems right, it's the staying I can't figure out why I continue to do it.

I kind of wish I could be more uplifting, maybe say something that would matter, because you are so young but I got nothing. I have wanted out since I was very young but had a reason to stay for about 18 years. Now he is grown and has his own thing going on, so there is not much to stop me these days. Well there are 3 little people I love to hang out with, they would be devastated if I left and would completely not understand why I would just up and leave them like that. So I just have to find a way to deal with this everyday bs just so I can enjoy those times with them.

Do what you feel you need to do, what is right for you. Be true to yourself. Life is not all bad and there are moments we find to treasure. And yes, I guess I am kind of talking to myself here too. Good luck!

hmu