Thank goodness I’m drinking

I’m counting on the whiskey (that he got me hooked on) will soon do its just job and numb me up from feeling. It hurts When I can’t even watch the games because I know I can’t text him. I can’t text him asking m if he just fucking saw that. I can’t text him as I’m pacing because I’m overthinking something I said. Grief comes in waves and sometimes the waves knock you on your ass no matter how deep your feet are buried. I’m glad your team won today again I just wish you were here