Why might I have done this?

My 93-year-old grandmother was hospitalized for three days and passed away after that time. After I was called in to say goodbye to her, I cupped the area of her pussy through the bag, then rubbed my own pussy against the gurney for a few seconds. I did it when there was no one inside. If she had died at home, I'd have rubbed against her body.

Even at the funeral home, I breathed in the scent of death and took pleasure in it