If you ever had a close family member die...

Did you start thinking about your own time on earth a lot more? Every day since my dad passed in February, I'm thinking of A. How sad it is Bec it was so fast, and B. How much more time do I have?
Will I get cancer too? Will I get some other severe disease? Or get hit head on by a speeding car?
It makes me realize how little time we have and to maybe start LIVING more. But it also makes me so helpless, that we all leave here😢