How does grief evolve/change over the years?

I’ve lost a few people in recent years. I’m still pretty young, though. I sometimes wonder how my feelings will change over time. Like, my dad for example. Currently, I am someone whose dad has been around for ~basically~ all their life, except the past couple years. When I’m 60, I will have spent 50% of my life without my dad. I know I'm lucky to have gotten the time I did, but it's still a surreal thought. I don’t know if this is making sense to anyone but me haha. It just feels like such a deep change in my identity.


The other thing is I feel disbelief over how long it has been since these people have died. The first one was 5 years ago, but it feels so much more recent. My feelings about it have honestly only gotten stronger. I’m not thinking about it as frequently, but when I do I feel so much more. I dunno if that’s normal.


Anyway. I’m not looking for sympathy or anything. I’m fine- it’s just how life goes. I’m mainly curious about what other people’s experiences have been.