I hope I'll die soon...

What I wanted in this life never came true. Everyone bullied me.
Everyone used me.
Everyone lied to me.
Everyone hated me.
Everyone said I was mentally ill because of the things I loved.
Nobody took me seriously.
I didn't get enough love and attention from my family.
I have been traumatized many times.
There was no one I could hug when I cried.
I hesitate to tell even my best friend what I really want.
Even those who said they could do what I wanted got bored of me.
I know I am a disgusting person and I absolutely deserve to die...