I hope I'll die soon...

What I wanted in this life never came true. Everyone bullied me.
Everyone used me.
Everyone lied to me.
Everyone hated me.
Everyone said I was mentally ill because of the things I loved.
Nobody took me seriously.
I didn't get enough love and attention from my family.
I have been traumatized many times.
There was no one I could hug when I cried.
I hesitate to tell even my best friend what I really want.
Even those who said they could do what I wanted got bored of me.
I know I am a disgusting person and I absolutely deserve to die...

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Ryannnnnn · 31-35, M

I felt like that for 10 years when I was that age and earlier. Your life has not even begun though, my advice is change what you can in your control and hold yourself accountable to doing that.

Do things today that make tomorrow better. Think about what you want and your mind will tell you what you aren't doing. Start doing them. That's part of how I cured my depression and anxiety.

And btw I've had some truly horrible experiences in life. But that's the past.