I hope I'll die soon...

What I wanted in this life never came true. Everyone bullied me.
Everyone used me.
Everyone lied to me.
Everyone hated me.
Everyone said I was mentally ill because of the things I loved.
Nobody took me seriously.
I didn't get enough love and attention from my family.
I have been traumatized many times.
There was no one I could hug when I cried.
I hesitate to tell even my best friend what I really want.
Even those who said they could do what I wanted got bored of me.
I know I am a disgusting person and I absolutely deserve to die...

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Tarxarin · 31-35, M

I think life has stacked the cards against you certainly.

But, your life is important than yesterday and the today.

I'd say it's about who you could be.

That said, my sister killed herself and what she didn't know is the void left behind.

She was savagely bullied, abused, raped, hurt by her parents.

Yeah she had mental illnesses, did drugs, wasn't the best person.

But she loved life, she was super super strong and she was there for me when I needed her and she help save my life.

I think you could help people to, not just family, but many people need help out of being bullied and abused.

ForensicExpert · 22-25, F

@Tarxarin Why did you feel the need to belittle what I said?
I'm TIRED of people comparing my troubles to other people's troubles

Tarxarin · 31-35, M

@ForensicExpert aw I see. I see. Have a good life.

PhoenixPhail · M

@Tarxarin You tried. 🤷‍♂️
Some people are just stuck in victimhood.

ForensicExpert · 22-25, F

@PhoenixPhail huh? Is he right.

PhoenixPhail · M

@ForensicExpert He wasn't belittling you. He was supporting the goodness in you that you're keeping yourself from seeing by closing yourself off with your resistance. It's quite understandable you would have very bad feelings about what's happened to you. Being bullied, lied to and told you're mentally ill are hard things to take. Your hard feelings about all of that is a natural response to very unnatural circumstances. But you can get beyond those feelings and experience the joy of your True Self, if you want to. The shift won't happen overnight. But you can begin your journey today out of living your life from a reactive place to a more responsive place. There's a great deal of information and help on how to find your path of recovery. You can do this.