I Think About Death

My mom told me about a friend of hers that I know whose daughter suddenly died in her sleep. She was in her 20s. I am very sad to hear this. My mom asked me if I would join her at the memorial, but I am unable to because of my job. I feel bad, however, at the same time I am trying to stay away from sad things right now as I’m still mourning the death of my father since he died in October, which tends to haunt me often. I can’t believe it has almost been a year, and how time flies. It still feels unreal, and I have not been able to spread his ashes at the place he wanted. I just got a new full time job, and I’m unable to take time off right now. It is a good distraction from the depressing thoughts that run through my mind daily, but oh, how I wish I could just honor my father’s last wish. And as for my mom’s friend, I will be painting something to give her in memory of her daughter.