I Believe In Near Death Experiences

The Short Version... at 3 i died briefly from gastroenteritis, i have no recollection of this, as most of my child hood before i was 10 was erased by a coma. i died three times whilst in the coma, the doctors had signed my death certificate. i remember dieing i remember going some where so peaceful and serine that words escape me. it was more a feeling than an actual place. i tried to commit suicide when i was younger, as nothing on earth could replace the feeling i had. some thing wouldn't let me die. i suffer from epilepsy due to the coma, i have what doctors call audio and visual hallucinations.. what they cant explain is what i see, and how the hallucinations have saved mine and others lives. recently i almost willed my self to death i was dieing, and yet again something stopped me. since then i have been having flash backs, a lot of my past is unknown to me. years of blackouts, disassociation and me deliberately blocking memories have taken there toll. i know i haven't explained much, i find it hard to talk, and harder to be understood. thank you for reading.