I Believe In Near Death Experiences

The Short Version... at 3 i died briefly from gastroenteritis, i have no recollection of this, as most of my child hood before i was 10 was erased by a coma. i died three times whilst in the coma, the doctors had signed my death certificate. i remember dieing i remember going some where so peaceful and serine that words escape me. it was more a feeling than an actual place. i tried to commit suicide when i was younger, as nothing on earth could replace the feeling i had. some thing wouldn't let me die. i suffer from epilepsy due to the coma, i have what doctors call audio and visual hallucinations.. what they cant explain is what i see, and how the hallucinations have saved mine and others lives. recently i almost willed my self to death i was dieing, and yet again something stopped me. since then i have been having flash backs, a lot of my past is unknown to me. years of blackouts, disassociation and me deliberately blocking memories have taken there toll. i know i haven't explained much, i find it hard to talk, and harder to be understood. thank you for reading.

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shai

You're very welcome..

Suicide doesn't dam the soul at all. Don't you think GOD doesn't understand why people can't stand being here on earth? Of course HE does, and this is why HE welcomes them with open arms.

No matter how we die, we all still have to ask for forgiveness, before entering GOD'S Kingdom, if for nothing else but because we are born imperfect.

Please be sure to ask GOD for the gift of discernment, so you know who is answering you as satan loves to impersonate GOD because that is who he wants to be.

Don't take anything for granted [meaning your gifts] or life for that matter, stay humble, be determined to win, and be resilient. Don't allow anyone to keep you down. Don't Give Up!

GOD Bless

shai

You have a gift, which is saving lives, and you don't know why your life is being saved?

One night when you are doing nothing, talk to GOD about how you feel, I bet He'll answer you.
The hallucinations are not really hallucinations, its your reality, part of the gift.

The peaceful feeling you felt when you died was the Love of GOD overwhelming you. This is what you're seeking and it will take GOD to help you find this same love, here on earth.

Quit trying to commit suicide and ask GOD to be your teacher.

You will be alright...I'm positive of that.

GOD Bless

hardcor364 · 56-60, M

the reason i only wrote the short version was to give a brief account,to fully explain all, would take another life time, as to complete it in this, will be impossible. over the years i have realized and come to terms with why i was sent back.
as to what i was sent back to do i am uncertain of, or if i can complete it in the short time i have.
suicide was an attempt to get the answers i need,and to be able to walk once more before gods glory and to feel gods presence, even though i know, it would dam the soul god cherishes.i needed them that bad, after resent events in my life, suicide is no longer an option.
as unfair as it is, the only way to get the answers, are to stand in gods presence, that is why i have died more than once, there are times god needs to talk direct.
i do talk to god daily whether i am alone or not, i feel no embarrassment to talk out load and ask god questions in the presence of others.
i feel sadness for there amazement that some one would talk out load to god.
my friends who have got used to it, often ask me to ask god a question, i always reply. you do know he can hear you.
my penance is to do gods will and not to be able to return. the recent event i spoke of made me realize, i have the ability to will myself to death, its annoying knowing i have the ability to be where i so desperately want to be , yet cannot allow it.
suicide is to deliberately take ones life, and dam ones soul. the ability i have would means i would die in peace, soul intact.
i thank you for your kind words and incite,you truly understand gods ways.
i wish you peace love and happiness in your life.

AliyaahAbdy

I liked reading this a lot.

"...i have what doctors call audio and visual hallucinations.. what they cant explain is what i see, and how the hallucinations have saved mine and others lives..."

What do you see?

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