I can so relate and succeeded only to be brought back. I know there is nothing that anyone can possibly say to ease your pain. You have the answers inside, deep inside. Your life may be out of control but you still have you. Right now, you are probably saying, "well that's not much and certainly not enough", but you are wrong. Only you can heal yourself. That person inside of you is screaming for attention, Your attention. You are not who others define you to be. Don't get lost in the past, failures or bad hands which life often deals out. Reach down inside and hug that person who has no voice. Give that person a voice because that person has a purpose and perhaps it's to stop someone else from doing what you are contemplating. There are others in the same place who need your experience. Save a life don't take one.
