Deathbed Confessions: Episode One

Definitely understand this and there's no shame in doing what you have to do to survive and make sure you have what you need. Sometimes the behind the scenes isn't pretty on the way to a more stable or happier life but sometimes the circumstances beg us to exhaust literally all avenues. Those things aren't who you are, merely a series of actions that you don't have to worry yourself or wring your hands over anymore and you made it through them. Absolutely 100% understanding here and zero judgement. Let yourself be unburdened completely 🤗

Thank you for sharing. I went through a similar period where I did various forms of sex work as I was too proud to ask for help. It’s complex even when you make it out, sometimes there’s complicated feelings still there. Sometimes walking to my car I’d think if I was attacked no one would care they’d just see a sw. I was followed more than a few times. I hope talking about it has helped you left go of a bit of that shame and guilt. Those feelings belong with the system IMO 💚

I could write a few confessions myself. I too brought myself from the dark into the light. It took a lot of years to do it and I have a lot of skeletons in the closet. There was a time when my mom's expectations of my likely outcome were prison or death. Luckily I had an intervention from someone who had more hope for me than that. I'm deeply scarred and very damaged. To me you are golden. If I can be as beautiful a soul as you then I'll have achieved something before I go.

I've known many that were sex workers. Went to junior high with one, not even knowing she was one, until over a decade later.

It's not always that way. I do admit most unfortunately got into drugs eventually. And that was sad to watch. I'm glad that I never did drugs.

There's no shame in providing for yourself. At all. Whether it's by choice or circumstance.

The only shame is in it not being a safe avenue for many women. I'm just glad you worked past it and came out the other side💙

For me, who you were and what you did mean nothing. It’s who you are and what you do that counts.

Besides, women and men have been marrying for centuries because she has it and he wants it, and she wants prosperity and he has it.

You're human and you survived. You were strong when you needed to be.

I'm glad you can unburden yourself now. I'm glad you made it out and on to creating your own loving family ❤

You don't have to feel so bad about that. I know lots of women who have done the same, it just never gets talked about. It doesn't have to. You understand yourself better than anyone & anyone else's thoughts or opinions don't matter to your life anyway.

I've done a lot of shit I regret & I often go through that feeling of survivors guilt. It could be in the middle of the night, middle of the day, whatever. It sucks to feel like you don't deserve to have made it out. You've earned it though. Not to say that other's didn't, but you have every right to pat yourself on the back for building the life you have because YOU did it. Nobody else did it for you

The healing and reconciliation is what matters as well as just coming out of it okay and safe. All the love for people who do sex work and all the hate for the predators who hurt them.

You should never be the one to feel guilt. That should only be felt by anyone who took advantage of you.

You were doing what you wanted to or needed to do get what you wanted.

You've built a beautiful life for yourself, by the sounds of it.

And thank you for sharing so much with us openly. You are such a fucking beautiful human omg 😤🥹

Hugs

You did what you had to in order to survive.

Wow, you really leaving us soon huh...im sorry you had to survive what you went through. Glad you were able to find a husband and have kids.