Deathbed Confessions: Episode One

There was a time I was so done with my parents/family in general that I did sex work rather than accept their money for my health and education costs when I couldn’t work enough.

My sugar daddy passed away and I had a few scary experiences trying to meet another one and stopped before I got myself into too much trouble.

Sometimes I feel shame about this but mostly I am just so grateful for all of the healing and reconciliation that has occurred since then. Also grateful that I was one of the lucky ones who didn’t end up missing or murdered. I knew too many who met that fate and there is some survivors guilt.

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ChiefJustWalks · 26-30

You don't have to feel so bad about that. I know lots of women who have done the same, it just never gets talked about. It doesn't have to. You understand yourself better than anyone & anyone else's thoughts or opinions don't matter to your life anyway.

I've done a lot of shit I regret & I often go through that feeling of survivors guilt. It could be in the middle of the night, middle of the day, whatever. It sucks to feel like you don't deserve to have made it out. You've earned it though. Not to say that other's didn't, but you have every right to pat yourself on the back for building the life you have because YOU did it. Nobody else did it for you

SwampFlower · 31-35, F

@ChiefJustWalks You have come SUCH a long way, my friend. Proud of you for finding the right path and walking it everyday.

You right your wrongs by becoming a blessing to this world and I see you doing that. Not the least by the way you’re raising that precious little of yours.

ChiefJustWalks · 26-30

@SwampFlower hey don't make this about me 😝 but thank you 🤗 I at least know that you're a blessing to this world because you're a blessing to your family & even to us degenerates here lol. I'm glad I get to see you in my feed almost every time I log in because SW hardly shows me anybody these days. I'll be praying that the world gets to see you around as long as possible 🙏