CONFESSION TIME -- Your turn

Anyone remember EP confessions? I miss those.

Didn't use them much then...but now, would be nice.

I cheated on someone I loved, 2018.

Slowly after I became an alcoholic.

The very two things I despised and swore against....I became.

Sober until 22, virgin until 24 (2012). Had a good steady relationship until 2018.

I became disgusted with myself once I cheated. Can't look at myself or love myself. That was 5 years ago. Trying to drink myself to death because that's what I deserve.

Wouldn't you say? Think of the one that hurt you..... I am that person. They should suffer, yes? You hate them.

Seems only logical to hate myself.

I can only spend the rest of my life repenting.

It's just disgusting. I feel disgusting. The people who hurt you should feel disgusting.

We do.

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reflectingmonkey · 51-55, M

the way I feel about those who have hurt me? I hope they evolve and grow and become better people. self-love means being your best friend. if your best friend was in your position what would you say to them, how would you treat them? be like that with yourself. your only way out is self-love. you have to choose to not be who you were and be the new improved you and be proud of the new you. feeling bad help no one. as a joke when someone tells me "sorry, I feel so bad for what I did" I say " how is you feeling bad supposed to make me feel better? you want to make me feel better? give me money!!!" 😂 its a joke but it means repare stuff, make good, be a part of the positive in this world, do volunteer work. apologize to people if you can but not to win them back, just to say you wish good on them. I will never again be friend's with those that hurt me but if they'd at least say they realise it was wrong and wish they hadn't done it, i'd be happy with that. just to be told that I didn't deserve what they did. as long as you are hating and self-destructing you are still focussed on yourself. focus on others, make others fell good.

HellsBelle · F

@reflectingmonkey The problem is, I still want a future with the person I hurt.

reflectingmonkey · 51-55, M

@HellsBelle you need to focus on THEIR needs. say you are sorry, acknowledge that they didn't deserve this but rather they deserve a fathful mate and say you understand if they never want to see you again but for the record you still love them and would be happy if they'd call you again one day. if having them back is more important to you than giving them the space to heal, that is a big red flag for me and makes me think that you need more time to grow before being with someone.