I Have a Confession

Is it breaking up if the other half of a couple leaves to live somewhere else? I'm thinking of trying to live on my own with one of those 6 month leases, just to see what it's like. But he may not approve. Though, he has been talking about teaching me how to pay bills online. I need to know anyway in case something ever happened and I had to survive. Another reason I'm thinking of being on my own for a while is that we can't talk to each other anymore without bringing up the same situation. It's hurting us, so I think it's time that I gave both of us some air. Talking about it all the time and going around in circles is not solving anything. I'm stressed and crying all the time. We need time to think more clearly. I don't want to make things more complicated than they already are, so I just have to do what I think is best. It will be so tough if I decide to do this, but it's not out of the question. I'm scared because I've never done it before. This is why a 6 month lease is the better choice. And it has to be cheap...dirt cheap, but not run down and dumpy with crime all over the place. I need to experience what it is to have to keep my head above water.

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PoisonLace · 41-45, F

Using you was not my intention. I still don't know what I want to do. And because of my wishy washy actions I am losing you. I'm stuck between two rocks and can't get out. Maybe I shouldn't have expressed my feelings to either of you. Maybe I should have just kept it to myself. I can't take that back now. So if you leave I understand, because there's no undoing what I did and you will never forgive me. I also didn't mean to come off as shallow. When you were here, and I expressed how I felt, that was real. I can promise you. It was completely real. I never wanted to hurt you. I really didn't. I am broken hearted over all of this. And I have cried 4 days in a row. I'm hurting too. And I'm trying to figure out what I want to do with my relationship since he actually believes we weren't having issues in the first place. This is what I get for being honest and trying not to hurt anyone. There's nothing in this world like being in love with two people and losing both.