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I Have a Confession

I had a "cam" experience last night.

I don't really like it. Its too much pressure and makes me feel anxious. But something happened that made me feel super sweet about it.

I'm a work in progress. I'm trying to get healthier and lose some weight. I have loose skin from having children.

This guy said I was fat and chubby and very adorable. I have a problem with being called fat. I've been called it on and off for most of my life. And now one of my daughters calls me fat sometimes.

I try to not let it bother me. But I've never been called adorable. Even when I look my worst, with sagging breasts, unsmooth skin, stretch marks, a big stomach, etc.

Someone, thinks I'm chubby and adorable. Its kind of sad that a stranger finds me adorable when the man that is SUPPOSED to love me and find me adorable, can't stand me at all. And thinks I'm bad and will corrupt my children, etc.

It was nice just to know that someone finds me adorable as I am.

It made me feel sweet, and made the babygirl in me feel super warm and sweet.
Mutual cam experience is awesome , looks never mattered to me , I prefer the personality and chemistry.
You enjoy yourself EXACTLY how you are.
BANDULU
It seems to me that when you are living with a Narcissistic Pervert that any comment on your authentic 'Self Esteem' is like a cold knife in the stomach on a hot day!

In some countries,if a woman has not her voluptuousness,then she is considered to be lacking in attention,however in our modern day Western society,being thin and bony is a collective norm that goes with the images that we find on magazine covers....an illusion that has nothing to do with reality.What is important is what a woman oozes as her sexuality and exudes outward....and I can tell you that a cuddly warm partner to snuggle up to in bed at night as opposed to a vain bag of spiteful bones that struts into the local store as if she's on a Catwalk,being hit on by beer swilling perverts before her children....is certainly not the 'Comfort Zone' that most men wish to be with.......cherish everything you are my dear and banish those wicked comments that diminish your ego for free scars, because your partner seeks to reduce your freedom....be wooed and admired by strangers....they are the flowers that will make you bend to savour the sweet fragrance of admiration.....and if it tickles you...then offer the other armpit and laugh until you have the last laugh!

I am a man of 55...I feel wonderful and loved....I have a great body and many do not believe my age...yet when in the company of my partner I feel like the ugliest man on earth as she incessantly puts me down.....but the sparkle in the eye of a stranger boosts me to the heights of joy!

Never heed the critics,as they know only one thing...to freely criticize.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
because my kidz with autism and I can''t raise them by myself.

also my husband would take the kidz away from me.
kenspanks
Autism is a terrible condition. I certainly sympathize with your plight. However, I doubt any court would take your children from you for that reason. Have you ever talked with any professionals about the "entire situation"?
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
my husband knows the system and he would use any means necessary. all of his friends WILL lie for him and tell everyone i'm unstable.

and if not, he'd take the kidz in another way and take them to a country, probably Morocco where he has lots of friends.
bubkent
I don't get how anyone could ever talk down to a beauty like yourself. Don't let him or anyone the power to bring you down. Just look in the mirror and see just how beautiful you are. I see it all the time when I'm admiring your pictures. If you're husbamd wouldn't give the attention you deserve or know how to speak to you, I'm always available. I can admire you all day long and all night long. Even by thinking about you, I'm so damn hard...
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
thank you sweetie, not really fishing for compliments, but more like a reflection on my self and such
bubkent
Understood. If you ever need a confident boost though, just want to say you don't need to look far.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
hehe thank you. I appreciate it.
rigidigit
And why should someone say your adorable? We are our own hardest critics. And when just words can make us feel special and wanted, desireable? Then I say.. maybe it's a positive experience? And one that may help you to be more confident. One of the sexiest attributes I find is confidence.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
well thats a can of worms i can't get into right now
rigidigit
haha... I get you! One cannot help but offer, but really I do understand.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
nice, thank you
1DonJuan
You've got to learn to love yourself. By saying that, I don't mean that you shouldn't try to better yourself.
Everyone likes different body types. I don't mind some extra pounds. Just be health conscious, but don't get caught up on the cliche model figure in the media.
What I'm trying to say is... I'm sure you're sexy! ;)
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
I'm just trying to get healthier and stronger for my knees. So i'm not so prone to injury. I could never become a stick figure. trust me. Even when I'm super skinny, I'm still quite soft.
1DonJuan
Sounds good to me :)
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
thanx :)
criley
You are perfectly fine looking he is a moron for not looking at the whole picture. You admit that you are a work in progress and good for you, just make sure you are doing it for you and not someone else. Besides I hate when a women could break too easily and or blow away if a wind came by....
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
lol. I probably couldn't blow away, even at my skinniest because I've always had muscles underneath all my fat.

yes Im a work in progress but I'm not the only one whos gained weight since we got married. He blows it off to aging, but really its his diet. He eats LOTS of junk food and sugar, more than he used to. probably from smoking weed lol

Also, as you know, a lot of men can get away with weight than a woman can. so there ya go
criley
Well I still think that he is certainly missing out because from what I can tell you would certainly be hours of enjoyment.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
hehe, thank you
Zorroo
as long as you don't have health problem, don't listen to any body, you only do whatever you like, just be yourself.
if you need to lose some weight for your knee pain, do it
not all men like skinny women, there are many who like chubby woman.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
i'm doing it for my health and to be more comfortable in my own skin

yes I know from this guy, that some men like chubby women. I've just never heard it to my face before.
BANDULU
Men like ALL WOMEN....we sense the erotic delices!
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
lol too funny
samueltyler
sad that some asshole had to demean you, the fact that you were baring yourself to him should have had him keep his mouth shut. every woman has something to compliment, I am so sorry you were not given any, please add me and I will try to be nice, or not say anything.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
thank you sweetie.

i appreciate it.
Aussiefarmer
Hi Rose I accept you as you are very adorable and a very nice girl and pleased you had a cam experience it is a great feeling if you relax and yes you are a baby girl
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
hehe, not any time soon lol
Aussiefarmer
I can wait
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
lol. good luck with that
hereisme
You should not put yourself down learn to love your body you might not be getting the compliments at home but that does not mean other men do not think your attractive.
Hope you enjoyed yourself
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
thank you sweetie

i appreciate it
Austinight
When I looked at your pictures, I saw a woman that looks like the mona lisa. Big, small, who cares, it is what is inside and how your present yourself. And from what I saw, you present your self extremely well.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
hehe thank you
tlcluv
Hi there sweetness,forget about the loser or losers calling you fat.You are beautiful and not shy to show yourself,thanks for that.Dont worry about those horrible guys,just keep on showing your beautiful body,others love it...so keep on showing girl.
stantheman1
Fat is a discusting label. I expect that you carry a few extra pounds and women with curves are very exciting to me. Smooth skin is much more fun to caress than having to go around bones sticking out.
sensual999
And did you enjoy the experience? Would you do it again with the right person?
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
thanx. you're too kind
cunninglinguist1
It's true :)
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
well thank you again
rouser60
u deserve better. u sound like a very beautiful and caring person to me.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
thank you
cunninglinguist1
Agreed, to say the least :)
BBWand40
I look at the word "fat" from a factual viewpoint rather than having a negative connotation.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
yes, i ignored that word from my experience lol
thedawg1
Well written and truly revealing. I think you are a truly beautiful woman.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
thank you sweetie
dumblonde19
ohh sweetie i know yr adorble n i havent even seen u lol!
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
lol. you are too funny. thanx.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
hehe thank you
CoonAssPilot
You ARE a gorgeous woman and should be treated as such.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
thank you! :)
CoonAssPilot
You're very welcome. ;-D MWAH!
Sierra338
You look so hot in your profile pic!!!! I think you're adorable!
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
Thank. not my real pic but still thanx
DewiNaturist
I'm sure there are many guys who would appreciate your looks and the person you are
demorcan
I am glad you got to feel that way. And you are adorable and very pretty.
darktippedrose · 36-40, F
thank you
Bobismetoo
I'm sure do are adorable and curves are awesome, thinking you are delicious
dvandva
How good you were made to feel that way...everyone should.
tulips4u
a milky mommy is sexy and special no matter what!
cunninglinguist1
Hope things only get better from there!
manfly24
WOW! I sure would have liked to see you then!
Dreampoet
Awww i bet you are too.
kered44

 
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