I Have a Confession

I had a "cam" experience last night.

I don't really like it. Its too much pressure and makes me feel anxious. But something happened that made me feel super sweet about it.

I'm a work in progress. I'm trying to get healthier and lose some weight. I have loose skin from having children.

This guy said I was fat and chubby and very adorable. I have a problem with being called fat. I've been called it on and off for most of my life. And now one of my daughters calls me fat sometimes.

I try to not let it bother me. But I've never been called adorable. Even when I look my worst, with sagging breasts, unsmooth skin, stretch marks, a big stomach, etc.

Someone, thinks I'm chubby and adorable. Its kind of sad that a stranger finds me adorable when the man that is SUPPOSED to love me and find me adorable, can't stand me at all. And thinks I'm bad and will corrupt my children, etc.

It was nice just to know that someone finds me adorable as I am.

It made me feel sweet, and made the babygirl in me feel super warm and sweet.

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BANDULU

It seems to me that when you are living with a Narcissistic Pervert that any comment on your authentic 'Self Esteem' is like a cold knife in the stomach on a hot day!

In some countries,if a woman has not her voluptuousness,then she is considered to be lacking in attention,however in our modern day Western society,being thin and bony is a collective norm that goes with the images that we find on magazine covers....an illusion that has nothing to do with reality.What is important is what a woman oozes as her sexuality and exudes outward....and I can tell you that a cuddly warm partner to snuggle up to in bed at night as opposed to a vain bag of spiteful bones that struts into the local store as if she's on a Catwalk,being hit on by beer swilling perverts before her children....is certainly not the 'Comfort Zone' that most men wish to be with.......cherish everything you are my dear and banish those wicked comments that diminish your ego for free scars, because your partner seeks to reduce your freedom....be wooed and admired by strangers....they are the flowers that will make you bend to savour the sweet fragrance of admiration.....and if it tickles you...then offer the other armpit and laugh until you have the last laugh!

I am a man of 55...I feel wonderful and loved....I have a great body and many do not believe my age...yet when in the company of my partner I feel like the ugliest man on earth as she incessantly puts me down.....but the sparkle in the eye of a stranger boosts me to the heights of joy!

Never heed the critics,as they know only one thing...to freely criticize.

darktippedrose · 36-40, F

thats true. and yes, I hate that too. The person thats supposed to love you, does NOT

kenspanks

Although it is really "none of my business," why do stay with a man that apparently dislikes you and feels you are corrupting your children? For financial reasons? It doesn't sound like a healthy environment for your children.

darktippedrose · 36-40, F

because my kidz with autism and I can''t raise them by myself.

also my husband would take the kidz away from me.

kenspanks

Autism is a terrible condition. I certainly sympathize with your plight. However, I doubt any court would take your children from you for that reason. Have you ever talked with any professionals about the "entire situation"?

darktippedrose · 36-40, F

my husband knows the system and he would use any means necessary. all of his friends WILL lie for him and tell everyone i'm unstable.

and if not, he'd take the kidz in another way and take them to a country, probably Morocco where he has lots of friends.