I Have a Confession
I had a "cam" experience last night.
I don't really like it. Its too much pressure and makes me feel anxious. But something happened that made me feel super sweet about it.
I'm a work in progress. I'm trying to get healthier and lose some weight. I have loose skin from having children.
This guy said I was fat and chubby and very adorable. I have a problem with being called fat. I've been called it on and off for most of my life. And now one of my daughters calls me fat sometimes.
I try to not let it bother me. But I've never been called adorable. Even when I look my worst, with sagging breasts, unsmooth skin, stretch marks, a big stomach, etc.
Someone, thinks I'm chubby and adorable. Its kind of sad that a stranger finds me adorable when the man that is SUPPOSED to love me and find me adorable, can't stand me at all. And thinks I'm bad and will corrupt my children, etc.
It was nice just to know that someone finds me adorable as I am.
It made me feel sweet, and made the babygirl in me feel super warm and sweet.
I don't really like it. Its too much pressure and makes me feel anxious. But something happened that made me feel super sweet about it.
I'm a work in progress. I'm trying to get healthier and lose some weight. I have loose skin from having children.
This guy said I was fat and chubby and very adorable. I have a problem with being called fat. I've been called it on and off for most of my life. And now one of my daughters calls me fat sometimes.
I try to not let it bother me. But I've never been called adorable. Even when I look my worst, with sagging breasts, unsmooth skin, stretch marks, a big stomach, etc.
Someone, thinks I'm chubby and adorable. Its kind of sad that a stranger finds me adorable when the man that is SUPPOSED to love me and find me adorable, can't stand me at all. And thinks I'm bad and will corrupt my children, etc.
It was nice just to know that someone finds me adorable as I am.
It made me feel sweet, and made the babygirl in me feel super warm and sweet.
36-40, F
