I Am Angry

When I'm angry, or even just irritated, it's like something inside me explodes, and from that moment I cant seem to access my own brain. I'm like a passive passenger watching helplessly as my rage-y brain takes over and makes me shout and snap at people, and in the past even hit people. I hate that I get so worked up - and over such ridiculous things as well - but I don't think I'm even capable of changing. That might not be true, though, since I have gotten better at walking away, so maybe my angry actions have changed, but the base emotions are still the same. I still feel entirely trapped by jealously and anger and bitterness and it never seems to stop.

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FORMERLYbatovn · 56-60, M

I give you credit for recognizing the issue and for at least trying to walk away. I would suggest speaking with a pastor or counselor or someone who you trust to develop some form of accountability and learning to recognize what triggers you and learning to process things in a different way and to not let the inconsequential things get to you. Its not easy but its possible....also if you need to....find someone to vent to at the time. I wish you well.

loveyourselfalways00 · 22-25, F

@FORMERLYbatovn: I have had a couple of counsellors through the years already, and to be honest though they've helped a bit, it never helps in the moment. Thanks for your response though!