I Am Angry

When I'm angry, or even just irritated, it's like something inside me explodes, and from that moment I cant seem to access my own brain. I'm like a passive passenger watching helplessly as my rage-y brain takes over and makes me shout and snap at people, and in the past even hit people. I hate that I get so worked up - and over such ridiculous things as well - but I don't think I'm even capable of changing. That might not be true, though, since I have gotten better at walking away, so maybe my angry actions have changed, but the base emotions are still the same. I still feel entirely trapped by jealously and anger and bitterness and it never seems to stop.