Is it normal or weird?

Since my moms passing over 2 weeks ago that’s all I have been posting here.

I have been recently noticing that I have been angry and yelling as I am mad and sad and angry. I want break things and yell from the top of my lungs. I only yell inside my pillow and hit myself instead because I am mad and don’t want to break things in my home? Am I crazy is this normal to grieve this way or am losing my shit?

. I am angry that my mom suffered a lot. I am angry that she never lived the life she deserved. I am angry that some of my siblings put her through the worst. I am angry that she was embarrassed of her skin color. I am angry that she never felt beautiful. I am angry about so many things. I just wish she was here. No matter how much I tried to tried to be the best daughter and not give her shit like some of my siblings did, I just feel like I didn’t do enough. I wish I had the money to help her more than what I did help her with. I wish I would have visited her more. Although I called her every week almost every day I feel like I didn’t do enough and I am angry because I wish she was here so I can talk to her. I know she is not suffering anymore but I just miss her.

in10RjFox · M

Everything happens for a reason. Feel blessed that she passed away and not suffer further and that she suffered for a reason and that she was let to go also for a reason.

Take it that she went through all the suffering for you so you can live her life the way she would have wanted or the way she deserved. Think of your life as hers and just go live it out.

You would agree that she definitely not want your life to be like this. So get on to the future and not dwell in the past.

Death happens for a reason. And just let go of her and thoughts of her.. and start to live your life for she has incarnated through you.