Is it normal or weird?
Since my moms passing over 2 weeks ago that’s all I have been posting here.
I have been recently noticing that I have been angry and yelling as I am mad and sad and angry. I want break things and yell from the top of my lungs. I only yell inside my pillow and hit myself instead because I am mad and don’t want to break things in my home? Am I crazy is this normal to grieve this way or am losing my shit?
. I am angry that my mom suffered a lot. I am angry that she never lived the life she deserved. I am angry that some of my siblings put her through the worst. I am angry that she was embarrassed of her skin color. I am angry that she never felt beautiful. I am angry about so many things. I just wish she was here. No matter how much I tried to tried to be the best daughter and not give her shit like some of my siblings did, I just feel like I didn’t do enough. I wish I had the money to help her more than what I did help her with. I wish I would have visited her more. Although I called her every week almost every day I feel like I didn’t do enough and I am angry because I wish she was here so I can talk to her. I know she is not suffering anymore but I just miss her.
I have been recently noticing that I have been angry and yelling as I am mad and sad and angry. I want break things and yell from the top of my lungs. I only yell inside my pillow and hit myself instead because I am mad and don’t want to break things in my home? Am I crazy is this normal to grieve this way or am losing my shit?
. I am angry that my mom suffered a lot. I am angry that she never lived the life she deserved. I am angry that some of my siblings put her through the worst. I am angry that she was embarrassed of her skin color. I am angry that she never felt beautiful. I am angry about so many things. I just wish she was here. No matter how much I tried to tried to be the best daughter and not give her shit like some of my siblings did, I just feel like I didn’t do enough. I wish I had the money to help her more than what I did help her with. I wish I would have visited her more. Although I called her every week almost every day I feel like I didn’t do enough and I am angry because I wish she was here so I can talk to her. I know she is not suffering anymore but I just miss her.
