@Gangstress Hello mate 🙂 How are you feeling? Im sorry you yourself are feeling a pinch atm. Kind of the inspiration for this very post tbh. Thank you for really kind words. And dya know honestly id gladly chill in a pub park or somewhere tranquil and chat away to you. Its nice to just be ourselves with freedom to talk about whats good or bad in our own opinions. Laughter. Depth and honesty are needed today. Any day infact but yes with division galore today maybe people would realise we are as one regardless of where were from. Our colour race etc matters none if on levels where it really counts we connect hey mate. Thats what today needs more than ever id guess. You keep strong beautiful soul. X Thank you again for kindness. Credit goes to you though my friend as it shows the character i love and connect with in ways that really do matter. Had a few laughs in the past even though we havnt met 😆 Omfg the MATTTEYYYYY vids 🤣 Cringe f.cking cuhhh..rinnnge 😆😆 Drink aye. Love you my dear friend. Big hugs. X

@Lostpoet Hey thank you. And there you go for me anyway. if anyone (bad stuff aside) finds that inspiring then its great because thats a positivity that outweighs any negativity for me. Clearly i could never explain any deep stuff to my kids verbally. And even though im academically not great lol, i have used other silent methods and hopefully words of wisdom to keep them from that life. Thank you again. I wish you well in life. 👍

@Justmeraeagain Lol honestly i swear i didnt take it personally. I posted it like i do any of my posts i suppose knowing there could/will be negative and positive feedback. I honestly wouldnt sit here feeling sorry for myself. I took drugs because it felt fun. Stupid i know but my god i was super immature. From a kid who had to be in at 9pm to a kid who was set free to learn life 😆 I make no excuses i promise you. And ive still got demons like millions of us but i fight and that led to change. Im a grandad of 5 now. Lol. Life really has changed for the better. But with age comes other issues hey. So the fight has to go on.

@Perry1968 how lovely about the grandchildren.
I've got two granddaughters they make life worth fighting for don't they?

@Justmeraeagain Aw thats nice. Im happy for you. And yes they really do bring desire to keep pushing in the right direction. I truly do love them so much. You get me im sure.

@cherokeepatti Thats ok. My pleasure 🙂 We all have a story and after masking for so long it feels semi liberating to free those memories and the demons that come from some of them. Honestly i try to think of our circumstances this way. I have been through the above. Some have had it far worse. Some not. But, we only know our own pain but can empathise with others. And someone elses pain is as bad to them as mine is/was to me. If i think of it that way Patti then it keeps us all on a level playing field. I dont deserve anymore than the next person for any sufferings. Our individual pains are all we know. We have to keep chipping away at that big heavy rock we find hard to carry throughout life until it becomes a mere pebble we can carry with ease. 🙂

@Perry1968 I was born in a family with serious mental problems and know the struggle of trying to survive in it. I look back at that and other related episodes in my adult life and think that we are going through a process and experiences where we are to make choices that either build our character or learn the hard way and get presented lessons until we sort things out. I have been fighting cancer for 3 years. Thought it was gone after chemo, chemo-radiation, and surgeries. But it’s back. I was sent to a rheumatologist this spring by my primary care doctor after telling how much pain I had been dealing with. Those two visits helped me to make changes where not only my pain is lessened to almost nothing but what I am doing has lessened the severity of the symptoms of the cancer. I am telling my oncologist every visit that I am loading up on cruciferous veggies, huge salads, fruits & nuts and other foods that lower inflammation and believe that’s why I have so much energy and feel good now even through chemo. It wasn’t like this the last time. My hair is shedding as a side effect but he said most others have nausea and vomiting and diarrhea with this latest chemo and I don’t have any of it. I can get out of the house and do things better this time too. Mental and spiritual attitude is really important too. Ray also was diagnosed with cancer two weeks before me. I have him with a similar diet eating so many veggies etc. so what I learned is helping him as well. He is still able to run his business and not suffering from those side effects either. This is something Iive for, to share what I have learned with others.

@cherokeepatti Wow. Id double heart that if i could. Im so sorry you are fighting that. You sound super strong and determined though and love the fact youve taken to natural anti imflammaries. You keep pushing onwards and upwards and fight on as best as you can. You see we all have our stories and thankyou for a insight into your life. Its uplifting to hear that you are a battler. And i know most of us crumble into heaps of sh.t from time to time but using the opening after dark periods to have another solid crack at life hopefully keeps us young minded in a sense and dig deep yet again. I truly wish you the very best. You are a tough human being. 🙂💙💪

@AngelUnforgiven Absolutely. Theres nothing far fetched in this case. I wished i could say i was a millionaire since birth but its not the case. Everyone does deserve a voice i agree. It has taken decades to liberate myself. And for good or bad i posted it. Its no sob story. Just realism. The site exists for all of us to voice whatever we like within reason so i respect your honesty.

@StarLily Thank you so much for kindness. Ive still been moving and walking and if all is good will be back out walking cycling workouts and fight on both mentally and physically.

@being Heyyyyy...yaaa 😆😆 Sorry stupid ninja impression. Seriously though thank you for your kind words.

@Perry1968 wonderful warriors 🌹

@Fertilization 🙂 Thank you. Its liberating letting it all out. Like a mouthful of boiling soup 😆 i spat it out. I expect to get mixed feelings from others here as we are all indiduals with different experiences. Im glad you found it inspiring. 🙂 Thank you again.

@Perry1968 I am always in awe of people who learn from their mistakes and become the best version of themselves. I admire when a person does not keep whining about his miserries but instead count them as a blessing in disguise.
My pleasure. 😇

@Fertilization 🙂 I appreciate that . I get my down days but dont we all. Im not perfect but honestly i really have changed to. I look back and think wt actual fk! But yes. Lol. Lifes lessons. Onwards and upwards I hope.