are you hesitant to post stuff here?

i still have 249 drafts .. i wrote another poem and didn't post it .. loaded a bunch of selfies.. same (didn't post) found some old selfies last night.. feel like i looked way different last year .. fell into bad company late 2024?? struggled the next two years emotionally .. finally got out the other day .. birds of a feather.. i don't blame them.. i was the same.. misguided down a dark path .. would probably still be there if it wasn't for the demon in my backyard screaming at me in the front yard .. by that i mean my psycho middle bro .. imagine someone standing in your front yard screaming all your sins at you at the top of their lungs madly .. well i didn't need to imagine it #asshole .. none of his business but anyway .. guess i got by with too much but not anymore.. realty bites and is like a wake up call.. you try and try to change but i guess sometimes one just needs extra motivation.. now i just need to somehow clean this house and yard of all it's accumulated clutter 😳 i blame my husband for selling our house and moving us into this shed.. like i have no place to put things.. but whatever such is life .. at least we own this lil place i feel like the screwy mortgage company would have stolen our last house from us if we didn't get away from them.. maybe it's good.. tho i often wonder if i should report them for being such bully crooks like wtf .. idk if i ever did tho.. rarrrr 😒