Yesterday I mowed my yard both front and back in the lovely winter sun, today I'm having anxiety attack and can't go out of the house

@zonavar68 It's kind of interesting that it's a feeling that comes and goes. It must make it difficult to any kind of planning from one day to the next one.

@MarkPaul I go to work (shiftwork - I'm a freight train driver) no problem, and can easily do most things my daughter wants to do with me no problem (except last summer I had one really bad public anxiety attack when I was out with her). I can go shopping if I need food, etc no problem.

I cannot approach people I don't know unless I have a defined need to do so. So approaching people with romantic intent is out of the question.

I don't do friends, prefer to be home alone in my own safe space (which sometimes includes outside my house in the yard doing things still at home like garden work, working on my vehicles, making something, or just chilling), don't seek or want romantic partners (due to disastrous relationship and dating experiences) anymore and anything sexual/intimate is off the table.

@zonavar68 The "nice" thing is you have come to terms with the way you are and don't seem bothered by it and it doesn't seem to cause any issues with your daughter. I can somewhat relate to what you mean by no problem going to work. Although I don't have any problem being out in the world for any reason, I am a bit awkward in pure social situations, and it can become a challenge at times. Any interaction related to work though doesn't require a second thought. It's like an auto-switch that goes on and off: social/professional. I'm not comfortable or accepting of my situation though.

A freight train driver sounds like it would be fun.