Do you ever feel so low about your life?

That most people around you are getting jobs, podcasts, going away/traveling, getting a new home, a new puppy, dating, having kids etc.

And what am I doing? Trying to read self help books every week on just how to alter myself, change myself, better myself. (From severe decades of trauma).
Still feeling panicked about dating, about certain jobs, and even about simply meeting up with a friend from many years ago. People say just say to guys, I do have anxiety but I accept myself...but I know they can choose so many others who don't have my issues. And realistically, do I think they'd choose a person with chronic PTSD over a confident woman? No.

It can feel crippling watching everyone around you experience joy, love and life.. while you are stuck for years, drowning.
Have you felt that?

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Justmeraeagain · 56-60, F

I feel that way sometimes.
I'm hoping therapy will help me.
Part of me longs to go out and do things but then I get anxious.
It's like looking outside through a window and never going out and participating.
I do agree with uncalled 4 that most people's lives aren't rosy they just get out there and live them.
It might be as simple as taking that first step but it's an awful hard first a step isn't it?
They say everything starts in the mind and I believe everything can also stop in the mind people can talk themselves out of a lot of things, I know I do.
It's actually a comfort when I realize people don't really care that much about what I'm doing they're not sitting around thinking of how to judge me as they have their own life to live and the few people who do and are vocal about it are doing so because they're miserable people or they wouldn't treat people bad.

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@Justmeraeagain Ty, those are great points 🌸