Just try this. Put the phone down for a few minutes. Try to blank your mind. Blank it from all the “I wish I had”s and “I want to do”s. Take a couple deep breaths and think to yourself “Am I happy where I’m at?”
I was scared to post this question. Everyone’s answer will be different. Some may find it triggering, some may find it silly. But I’ll share my answer.
Short answer: Yes, I am happy where I’m at.
Long answer: I fought for where I’m at. The woman I married I have known since 2013. While our paths always crossed but never ran alongside. I always hoped she could one day be a permanent part of my life. That our paths would finally parallel. For many years I told myself that this was the universe where I may just never have her hand. Until one day in 2022 when I saw her again after almost 5 years. After we talked for nearly 6 hours on the phone, a week later I was picking her up 2 states away. Our paths were finally together.
Where our lives go from here is completely up to us. Kids? Adventures? Do I wish I could have gone somewhere with my amateur racing career? Yes. Am I sad I didn’t? Hell no.
I may delete this post after some time. But I wanted to share it with you.
@GoFish You know, I told her when we first met I was going to propose to her with a particular ring I found. I had it custom made and proposed to her with it at the end of 2024.
I enjoyed reading this... and I'm glad life's path aligned for you both to walk together in it now. I'd prefer you don't delete it, it's nice to read thoughtful posts on here.
My answer is the opposite. I am not. But I AM determined to travel the paths that will bring me possibilites. To do otherwise, or do nothing, is simply a living death. Swim or drown. It seems you chose to swim.
