Do you ever feel like you are basically not allowed to speak of what's in your mind because it "upsets" people ?
I'm so tired of being constantly judged, everything is my fault every single thing I do is wrong my whole life is a mistake. And when I defend myself guess what, I'm still doing it wrong.
It's been this way since primary school except that instead of school mates it's now my family. Maybe I deserve this because in all honesty I did that to my sister at one point because she was doing the same to our younger sister. Now it's just me and I hate that I always end up forgetting and forgiving for the sake of peace and I end up oversharing and it happens all over again.
I also hate how easily this gets on my nerves and I snap.
Not sure how to fix that exactly, I would definitely leave if I could and obviously I thought of that but that's not an option given how things are healthwise.
It's been this way since primary school except that instead of school mates it's now my family. Maybe I deserve this because in all honesty I did that to my sister at one point because she was doing the same to our younger sister. Now it's just me and I hate that I always end up forgetting and forgiving for the sake of peace and I end up oversharing and it happens all over again.
I also hate how easily this gets on my nerves and I snap.
Not sure how to fix that exactly, I would definitely leave if I could and obviously I thought of that but that's not an option given how things are healthwise.
31-35, M
