Saw my rheumatologist last week and finally agreed to some pain meds. Pregabalin for fibromyalgia.

I just got the courage to take one tonight. I'm not a fan of meds and don't take anything on a regular basis except a multivitamin.

I can't believe I'm not in pain. I wasn't exhausted, pushing through it and grumpy. It allowed me patience with my son. I stretched and could actually feel the stretch. I could feel my body, not just radiant pain and nausea. I can relax myself. I'm not even sleepy now, I want to go for a hike or dancing or something 🥲

I think I've been in physical pain for years, not depressed.

I'm curious to see how long the affects last. Sometimes it's helpful to get a bit of relief and that gives me a couple days before the pain builds back up.

I take a very tiny dose of muscle relaxer when it's really bad but that stuff makes me groggy for days. It doesn't help that much. I'm very sensitive to meds, the smallest dose is always plenty, sometimes too much.

But yeah, I forgot what life could feel like. I just enjoyed my evening. I feel like me.