Breakfast with the spiders!

A few more weeks and I won't have to wake up with the neighbors rooster. Making my smoothie on the porch while the spiders make their smoothies 😂 so I don't wake my son up.

Five hours of sleep is not cutting it for my aging bod. To go into work and have it used like it's 20. Able bodied young men just standing there watching me drop things that are too heavy.

Boss is always late.

The world has very much changed since I was most able bodied, and I know I never treated anyone how I'm being treated right now.

I'm tired of this flow. Summer tourist season, then Xmas tourist season, then snow. Always stuck serving these people, yet staying out of their way, but watching out for their erratic, self-centered movement.

I don't hate 5am smoothies with spiders, just I'd rather it be on my terms and with some benefit besides barely paying bills. I'd rather not destroy myself for a system that profits from my pain. While people in the same boat as me watch me do both our jobs. I don't know if other places are like this. Other towns, cities, states or countries, if you still fail upwards everywhere. If you're still rewarded for being a lazy, soft, perpetual child with an important key.

I more enjoy the spiders than humans.

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Bexsy

5 hours is my average sleep, unfortunately. I need to work more on that.

I also get doing your job plus others. I'm always covering everyone else, yet when i need help or someone to cover things while I'm gone. No dice.

People expect everything yet give nothing

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@Bexsy I don't know how you function on so little sleep. It physical hurts me. Does it hurt you?

Bexsy

@ScreamingFox it probably is a big part of why my concentration is so lacking sometimes. I jump from thing to thing, kinda like my brain

goliathtree · 56-60, M

work ethic is (for the most part) a thing of the past. I used to tell myself that I could be proud of the fact that I worked more hours, got more accomplished and had better stamina than kids half my age....I still do all that, but now I am just mostly tired, but doing the same as I ever did and wiped out at the end of the day.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@goliathtree exactly this.

At first I was thinking, dang I still got it...

Then I realized everyone else would just let me do it all and nobody cared. It doesn't mean anything anymore.

goliathtree · 56-60, M

@ScreamingFox Sometimes we make our own misery and doing it all becomes an expectation and we enable others to sit on their ass and watch while we do.

robingoodfellow · M

5 hours sleep is usually what I get on weekdays and some of my best friends are spiders.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@robingoodfellow are you good with that amount of sleep?

I usually need 7 hours and a slow morning to perform my best with minimal pain.

Spiders make the best companions and friends. Relatable. Just tryna chill.

robingoodfellow · M

@ScreamingFox 5 isn’t enough but I can function. 6 I'm pretty good.

Livingwell · 61-69, M

Good morning. I hope the day is good and a few kind souls are encountered. 🤗🤗🤗

TheYawnArchive · 46-50, M

Humans are the bloodsuckers ... the vice in the equation. I thank you for your expression, you come off as a unique and authentic person that i wish well, easier days for you, you deserve that.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@TheYawnArchive I don't want to be on this planet anymore

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