Breakfast with the spiders!
A few more weeks and I won't have to wake up with the neighbors rooster. Making my smoothie on the porch while the spiders make their smoothies 😂 so I don't wake my son up.
Five hours of sleep is not cutting it for my aging bod. To go into work and have it used like it's 20. Able bodied young men just standing there watching me drop things that are too heavy.
Boss is always late.
The world has very much changed since I was most able bodied, and I know I never treated anyone how I'm being treated right now.
I'm tired of this flow. Summer tourist season, then Xmas tourist season, then snow. Always stuck serving these people, yet staying out of their way, but watching out for their erratic, self-centered movement.
I don't hate 5am smoothies with spiders, just I'd rather it be on my terms and with some benefit besides barely paying bills. I'd rather not destroy myself for a system that profits from my pain. While people in the same boat as me watch me do both our jobs. I don't know if other places are like this. Other towns, cities, states or countries, if you still fail upwards everywhere. If you're still rewarded for being a lazy, soft, perpetual child with an important key.
I more enjoy the spiders than humans.
Five hours of sleep is not cutting it for my aging bod. To go into work and have it used like it's 20. Able bodied young men just standing there watching me drop things that are too heavy.
Boss is always late.
The world has very much changed since I was most able bodied, and I know I never treated anyone how I'm being treated right now.
I'm tired of this flow. Summer tourist season, then Xmas tourist season, then snow. Always stuck serving these people, yet staying out of their way, but watching out for their erratic, self-centered movement.
I don't hate 5am smoothies with spiders, just I'd rather it be on my terms and with some benefit besides barely paying bills. I'd rather not destroy myself for a system that profits from my pain. While people in the same boat as me watch me do both our jobs. I don't know if other places are like this. Other towns, cities, states or countries, if you still fail upwards everywhere. If you're still rewarded for being a lazy, soft, perpetual child with an important key.
I more enjoy the spiders than humans.
41-45, F
