Breakfast with the spiders!

A few more weeks and I won't have to wake up with the neighbors rooster. Making my smoothie on the porch while the spiders make their smoothies 😂 so I don't wake my son up.

Five hours of sleep is not cutting it for my aging bod. To go into work and have it used like it's 20. Able bodied young men just standing there watching me drop things that are too heavy.

Boss is always late.

The world has very much changed since I was most able bodied, and I know I never treated anyone how I'm being treated right now.

I'm tired of this flow. Summer tourist season, then Xmas tourist season, then snow. Always stuck serving these people, yet staying out of their way, but watching out for their erratic, self-centered movement.

I don't hate 5am smoothies with spiders, just I'd rather it be on my terms and with some benefit besides barely paying bills. I'd rather not destroy myself for a system that profits from my pain. While people in the same boat as me watch me do both our jobs. I don't know if other places are like this. Other towns, cities, states or countries, if you still fail upwards everywhere. If you're still rewarded for being a lazy, soft, perpetual child with an important key.

I more enjoy the spiders than humans.

goliathtree · 56-60, M

work ethic is (for the most part) a thing of the past. I used to tell myself that I could be proud of the fact that I worked more hours, got more accomplished and had better stamina than kids half my age....I still do all that, but now I am just mostly tired, but doing the same as I ever did and wiped out at the end of the day.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@goliathtree exactly this.

At first I was thinking, dang I still got it...

Then I realized everyone else would just let me do it all and nobody cared. It doesn't mean anything anymore.

goliathtree · 56-60, M

@ScreamingFox Sometimes we make our own misery and doing it all becomes an expectation and we enable others to sit on their ass and watch while we do.