Something is wrong.

I think I might be deeply lonely but not in a way that allows bad people to stay in my life. I have boundaries and standards. I have people who come and go from my life. I don’t know exactly what is wrong. I feel hopeless sometimes but not suicidal or anything like harming myself. I just feel like nothing will ever change. Despite all this I continue to work and seek out social connections. I know I need to change my patterns but it gets lost in my procrastination and exhaustion.

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Coralmist · 41-45, F

Is it like an emptiness? Like you wish you felt more fulfilled? Or any subconscious fear?

Muthafukajones · 46-50, M

@Coralmist Boredom. I worry a lot too about being abnormal or being alone.

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@Muthafukajones Abnormal, in what way? Side note..you're not abnormal 🐞🌸

Muthafukajones · 46-50, M

@Coralmist My therapist says that too. He’s insisted that a lot of the things I feel are totally normal.

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@Muthafukajones You are a human being... With fears, or worries, and it's Def normal. I do fear being alone a lot😢 I'm trying so hard to feel worthy of love but years and years of trauma don't just fade with a snap of a finger. And it's like what if I can't heal this fear, of being unworthy? I'll just always be alone?? It's heartbreaking sometimes but I try to go walk or not worry. So you are Def. Not alone in your thoughts or worries 🌻