A new opening later allows me to actually be feeling my feelings...
I can name the feelings without judgment. I could even admit that I feel shame for feeling my feelings. It's big. I think it's a follow up from actually working with rejection. Allowing myself to get rejected.
I am accepting that multiple feelings, sometimes contradictory, can coexist in the same space.
@Achelois yes it is. But I noticed of how I wasn't feeling but rather, feeling over feeling. I don't know if I make sense. I would name my feeling instead of actually experiencing it, I would move into my head instead. It's slowly coming together. I'm getting it.