My life is nothing. I used to be able to make anything fun. I made everyone laugh at work. My...

BlueVeins · 22-25

Never make the mistake of thinking that the current trajectory you're on in life is the whole trajectory of your life. You're in a tough spot right now, raising a kid with little in the way of emotional and parental support, and yeah, of course that's going to take a toll on you. The fact that you're feeling this way isn't a reflection of who you are as a person. And this will end one day, either when you find some friends you can count on or when he's at least old enough to support himself. I won't pretend to know how to make things easier right now, but do what you can. And if things are still tough despite that, at least live with the knowledge that this is the worst of it, and brighter days are ahead.

I am nothing but what I give and I've run out. My boy knows it too. He's bored too. I'm messing up his life by not being enough alone.

Try not to let this get you down, OK? He's a teenage boy. It's really normal for him to kinda pull away from his parent at this age, sorta like you were saying. That's something to be proud of too, to an extent. To a child, a parent represents the safety and comfort they need to grow. He's developed to a point where he wants to go out into the world a little more and put what you taught him into practice.

Just my read on things, obviously I don't know your relationship well.

being · 36-40, F

Okay let's do realism, nothing positive or negative.
You inherited some property from your parents, that's a great plus!
Our memories, and you know all that well, are stored well beyond our conscious choice of order. Our body remembers. Your son knows nature, waters, forests, the winds in his bones, there's memory there too.

What about some single -parent aid from the government?
What about searching for a part time, struggle a bit more financially but be able to rest and have some fun ?

Kuronekko · 41-45, F

It takes time to heal. It's annoying to go from butterfly to the goop inside a chrysalis again, I know.

Your son may not remember those times like you do, but they built who he is as a person. It wasn't for nothing.

Please be gentle with yourself through this.

MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M

He will remember those fun things when he gets older and more mature and starts appreciating his memories more. From the sounds of it, you've done good and you've done your job, now you just need to let him take the wheel over his own happiness a bit, especially so that you can heal.

You're not done yet, you just need some time to work through this.

Bang5luts · M

No one is perfect except for you. Or they shouldn't seem to be. We all have value. But what is most important is that we see the value in ourselves. If we dont see or appreciate and fight for our own value no one else will.

This world will beat us down if we let it. If we are knocking ourselves down we have no chance for survival.

Hold your head high and don't let this world blur your vision of yourself. I don't know you, but I would hug you.

And not because I feel sorry for you, but because you are worthy of love and so much more. I hope this helps

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Gangstress · 41-45, F

Nobody is perfect x
Not me not them.
Don't let anyone judge you
You're a good person hun dont let anyone tell you any different, ever

SpiritSkye

Give yourself some grace love. I am feeling the same lately.

powernap · 56-60, M

Sending a HUGE ghost hug to you. Hope you can feel it. 🥰

NoGamesTolerated · F

There’s a God in heaven who very much cares about everything that touches your life. Jesus said, “The thief cometh not but to steal and to kill and to destroy. I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.” St. John 10:10.

Talk to him… He reveals himself to those who earnestly seek him.

It’s the devil’s job to make us feel depressed and in despair… But my friend , Jesus will life you up…

nonsensiclesnail · F

If I didnt know better I would think I wrote this.

Im sorry this is your reality 😔

SwampFlower · 31-35, F

Idk what to say bc I’m sure I will say the wrong thing. So just take some of these 🫂🫂🫂

Bexsy

If anyone laughs at you. They are hypocrites. Nobody is perfect. We're all struggling, all battling. I got ya, lady. Anytime you need me. My windows open 🖤

TheDeathOfOzymandiaz

That is very harsh. Be kinder to yourself 🤗

Lilymoon · F

Anyone who would laugh at this is an Ahole and not worth your time anyway.
For what it's worth I'm sorry :/