Hey you, there would be others who would be blessed with you in their lives, they just haven't yet been introduced to you before. ... Whatever has happened in the past, I don't know your history, but I think it's safe to say that people generally can be shit, they don't pick up on what's between the lines, there's no sensitivity to them, my guess is that's the case where being with others hasn't worked out. So then it effects our thoughts, we approach things guarded like, and perhaps miss opportunities.
The above is me trying to address what may be the case, but as an alternative, it might be not worth the hassle trying to meet other people irl, when there'd be certainly hiccups on the way to finding someone worth it all. What can be done then? Well you have your son, enrich that relationship, nurture his opportunities in life for the future, give him good times, and help him adapt to this crazy and unfair world.
And for yourself, for personal gratification besides the son aspect, try being interested in how others are so rotten irl, come off as friendly, maybe even as a jokester, but always observe, see how they fall short, increase in wisdom, a wisdom that takes stock of things, at some point, as I can imagine it, you'll see someone who you like, who likes you back, maybe a dozen of them over time. They could simply be friends.
Pollyanna advice eh? I shouldn't give up my day job. But I wish you well MM, maybe as a last recommendation, connect to nature, go out for walks, with a can of mace of course, and enjoy the peacefulness of the surroundings, it would be like mother nature is hugging you, healing all the frayed nerves, smoothing out the wrinkles of past experiences.
