I feel homeless once more...

It's an ongoing issue I haven't discussed with you since it's making me uncomfortable.
I grew up in a house where privacy wasn't a concept anyone was informed about.
Living with my mom again I'm experiencing a similar thing.
She's very often babysitting my two nieces and one more little boy but the house only has two rooms so I end up with the kids around.
I've been waiting for my days off and now that I got them, all three kids and very sick and all of them are in the house.
I feel I've no space and so I packed and went out.
I used to be living like this through my teenage years, homeless almost. I'd return home from school and find a chaos from which I'd run to the beach or the forest...
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I'm craving for roots and I just.. can't ...

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BrandNewMan · M

So .. moving in w a room-mate or place of your own seems like a reasonable response ..

being · 36-40, F

@BrandNewMan not this time around. I'll have a few days of patience and the situation is going to change.
It's not that tragic, it's okay...
But, nevertheless, thank you so much for your concern and suggestions

BrandNewMan · M

@being Ah .. didn't realize change is coming soon .. hopefully that brings you relief and a better situation

Pfuzylogic · M

That isn’t fair to you at all. Your Mom is being indirectly cruel to you.

being · 36-40, F

@Pfuzylogic she is but she will never understand it. It was always about everyone else but her closest ones. I can understand.

Pfuzylogic · M

@being I can identify with this. I experienced it also.

YoMomma · 41-45

And it never occurred to you to help your mom out since you were living with her?

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Matt85 · 36-40, M

atleast youre going to croatia soon
i hope they look after you well

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Matt85 · 36-40, M

i hope you dont have to clean up many cat poops

being · 36-40, F

@Matt85 no they're popping outdoors

Matt85 · 36-40, M

@being ah man, this deal sounds awesome

KingofBones1 · 46-50, M

That aint homeless.Trust me, I've been homeless I.Remember sleeping in the doorway of a church with nowhere to go in the pouring rain on christmas eve and nobody gave a fuck now that's homeless

being · 36-40, F

@KingofBones1 I've tried homeless too, but you are becoming too defensive of your own trauma that you're not allowing me to have my experience. See it.

Being a child in a chaotic environment and refusing to stay in it, I've too many times slept outside.
In churches' yards and getting secretly into schools with open windows, last floor of big buildings, random boyfriends, all these.

But tonight I'll eventually end up home.

Bang5luts · M

No wonder you travel so much. You need your own space, where you can unwind and some place of permanency.

being · 36-40, F

@Bang5luts thank you. I lived in my place before but not now. It is somewhat clear of how I don't want this way...
I understand her side of course.
It's her life. But I feel more like an intruder than anything else and I'm constantly since the beginning trying to Zen, but I can't Zen in this level, it's too damn difficult.

Bang5luts · M

@being yes it must be. I can totally understand your difficulties right now and understand why you travel so much. 🤗

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