My dad died a number of years ago and the saddest part about the whole thing

is that my life just got a lot easier for him being gone,and I feel a huge amount of jealousy towards everyone who will miss there's.

I don't remember even crying, I just felt all that pressure melt away. I guess sometimes I miss our conversation about things or being educated in topics that answered questions I'd had.

My dad was a brain even if he was a bit harsh on me, he's why I still care about Space and Rocket Launches and all like he taught me about how we were barreling towards an Asteroid mining future of resources from outer space , etc.