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What would you make of this?

I've been with my therapist several months now, and while she is very kind and nonjudgemental, unfortunately does not offer much in a session. Mostly nods and when I think she is going to say something more, she just agrees with what I said, and does not extend. I've been thinking of probably leaving therapy soon, even though I do like her, I just do need more.

But today, I am unsure whether to take what she said in a positive way, or what.
I talked of how I felt inept in a certain part of my life (I've mentioned it a few times before too). And that due to my narcissist mom's voice always in my subconscious, picking me apart, (every day of my life, for years upon years), That I wasn't sure I could 'do' this task I have feared. She looked at me kind of bluntly, Almost with a HINT of an attitude, (maybe for my benefit? not sure)... and said, 'What do YOU think? do you think YOU can do it?' And while I know what she means... I just felt like, I'm not sure really. Because frankly, I was saying, I have feared this issue in my life for YEARS, b/c I do NOT think I could do it. That is my dilemma. And then she did end it with, 'You are not any of what your mom said, and need to separate your 'Self', from her words.'

Of course the last part is positive, but it is NOT easy to do this. This was severe, EXTENSIVE trauma. I told her, I don't even HAVE a self, to separate... it was that bad. I was told not to even TALK or LAUGH in my home. It was nearly a cult. And I explained that to her, after she said the words above, and she made a semi, sad face and said, 'I know...' I felt like she was almost insinuating, I should have already known I can do what I feared.. or that it's easy to just separate from Years of debilitating, demonic abuse. What are your thoughts?
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easterniowegin · 51-55, M
I have always thought that if the therapist never gives you something tangible to work on, like exercises to help overcome your issues, then they are simply taking your money and keeping you on a hook.
There must be some mental exercises/affirmations/practives that you could be doing to help move you.

While I'm at it, why do you value the therapist's opinion in this specific case? Or are you just looking for someone to give some positive reenforcement for you?
Can another person really know how much you're capable of? And do you really think that you are so inept/lacking that you can't/shouldn't try whatever this is??

Henry Ford: "whether you think you can or think you can't...you're right."
Baybreeze · 41-45, F
@easterniowegin I truly need positive affirmations from someone. Helping me SEE a new way, a new path. I told her, it isn't just anxiety, but severe trauma that I am there for. My sister believes most therapists are not fully trained in healing /treating trauma. Even her own therapist admitted she really didn't know actual methods of treating trauma, only just listening to her clients who have it. And yes, you can truly believe you are very inept when a narcissist belittles you every. single.day. of your life, since you were one years old. I mean, relentlessly. Excessively. and Sadistically. Yep, you can believe you can't do something others normally can, or that you are unworthy of most thigns too. When someone is so insidious they can make you believe you are Nothing. Thank God I am FINALLY seeing a light, that maybe, I'm not nothing. But to just swing into the opposite that I can do anything others can, does not happen quickly. It is overcoming year s and years of dark, toxic beliefs.