Just Yappin
No amount of journaling or bike rides or promises save me from this void I find myself in lately. Called a hotline and they told me to try yoga- who can blame them? What do you really say to a complete stranger?
I'm severely broke this month after being taken off a large chunk of the schedule. Partially due to my current state and partially to do with my one douchy boss, but I'm using all this time off to do a partial program at the hospital.
Between working one day a week and doing nothing else, I'm pretty beat. This year so far has been exhausting, and I wasn't ready for a lot of it. Part of me is sick at the softness I achieve and part of me is ashamed of never manning up.
When I was a teenager, I thought un-aliving yourself was something that needed to be earned, or proven in some way to be the right decision. Like it had to be closely documented about why this needed to happen, so everyone understands. I don't really know how I feel about it now. Not really caring if I'm understood, that's for sure.
I'm severely broke this month after being taken off a large chunk of the schedule. Partially due to my current state and partially to do with my one douchy boss, but I'm using all this time off to do a partial program at the hospital.
Between working one day a week and doing nothing else, I'm pretty beat. This year so far has been exhausting, and I wasn't ready for a lot of it. Part of me is sick at the softness I achieve and part of me is ashamed of never manning up.
When I was a teenager, I thought un-aliving yourself was something that needed to be earned, or proven in some way to be the right decision. Like it had to be closely documented about why this needed to happen, so everyone understands. I don't really know how I feel about it now. Not really caring if I'm understood, that's for sure.
26-30, M
