I find my life worthless.

I don't see the reason why I'm even alive. I'm only alive because I don't have the guts to kill myself. I can't do it even if I try.
I'm going to live until I become tired enough to end my own life. If I am killed before I can do that, then there's that.

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RedGrizzly · 26-30, F

The way I think about it is this... permit yourself to carry on long enough til you find a reason to stay alive. There's always going to be a reason to be here, even though we might have tunnel vision and everything else is so dark. While you're doing that, show yourself kindness because no bump in the road is worth taking your own life. Especially...since there's always reason to stay that you may not know about right now.

RedGrizzly · 26-30, F

@RedGrizzly I say all of that because I have to follow it myself. I've lived out several situations in agony that people may only experience maybe one, hardly two things in their lifetime that I had experienced in sometimes a year or several years. But I'm still alive here with the feeling of hopelessness buried in the back of mind...but a flicker of hope breathing for me...even when I don't want to some days. You're not alone, and there are more people like you and I still fighting the food fight.