I find my life worthless.

@th3r0n I wouldn't belong to Christ as Christianity is a suffocating religion to be in, as for my experience. I'm rather on the agnostic side, so therefore, I see that there is no heaven nor hell; just simply The Afterlife.
I'm a weird individual; I'm not scared for what awaits me in The Afterlife, as I am more than curious and a bit excited to see what it would be like in the future. Would I be reborn again? Would this be the last of my the previous lives I had lived? Or would I end up at a place or releam for the spirits who has not yet passed on? Who knows. I find that exciting.

@Xalvadora not looking down on anyone for getting things wrong because I've screwed up way too much in life myself, but I've met the God of the Bible, and he comes to meet me when I need him

His spirit is with me, and has cast demons out from several people for me, and done many other great works for me that cannot be mistaken

Modern Christianity is suffocating, which is why you almost never find me in a church building, but if we read the Bible closely, especially the parable of the olive tree, there was never supposed to be a Christianity, just believers in Christ grafted into Israel, being the seed of Abraham by faith and heirs according to the promise

When I walk into a church, more often than not I can't get behind what is said, but I believe every word of the Bible and my experiences match it

If you read it for yourself, you're likely to find that it's nothing like what's being put forth by most these days

@th3r0n I've grown up with Christianity. Little me knew I didn't want to be a Christian. After those worrisome nightmares I had of the church I was going to, I was scared to even go to church, yet I had to go since I couldn't stay at my aunt's by myself. After I've turned 12 years old, my mother had bought me a smartphone, my first phone. This expanded my curiosity as I've done some research about some names of religions. Since I grew up thinking that there was only one god, I had decided that he doesn't exist. 12 year old me stood by logic and no article could tell me if god was real or not, since it lacked proof. So I had decided that I was an atheist.
All the way until I was 17 or 18 where I had discovered a few mythologies, and realized that Christianity is also considered as mythology. This made me turn from an Atheist to Agnostic. As I truly did not believe that there was no "higher power" who originated from a foreign country. I had believed there were something out there as I had theorized that there not being a heaven and hell. I didn't theorized about there being any gods, I just simply theorized the possibilities of there being a whole other universe.
I would like to be Agnostic until I can further prove to myself of the possibilities not being possibilities, but real. Once I've further proven myself that, then I would consider myself a Pantheist, despite me not knowing much other religions.
A Greek Goddess appeared in my dream, pointing me to the direction of Demonology/Demonolatry (Demonology; study of demons. Demonolatry; worship of demons). Demons do not want anything to do with us humans. They see us as equals. As far as I have read, devils are diabolical; devils and demons are not the same.

@Xalvadora fallen angels present themselves as different things; they are real and they have power

Even so, I have witnessed that the power of the God of Israel is absolute

He has cast out unclean spirits for me, his power is real, he is real, and nothing is hard for him

The occult is real also, but by the spirit of light one may cast out such darkness, for the light burns away the darkness

@Xalvadora p.s. I'm sorry about your bad church experiences

That's what turned a lot of people off from God -- not even God but people who claimed to live by his word and didn't

@th3r0n Maybe I don't want to believe the Christian god is real. He's nothing but a low-powered god who made his follows think that he's "The One & Only" god out there and also made his followers think that he's very powerful and that he created this Earth.
I'm not going to act like I know who created this Earth, because nobody knows.