I don't think I'll ever....

This happens when ur idea of your identity is not in sync with your actually identity. Try to empty your thoughts more and meet your real identity. When u find issues or short comings in ur real identity find a peace with them. Some can be changed with your effort and time. Some won’t change that’s where u have to learn the reason for that duality. The negatives we cary are for a reason but we see why until we chance our perception. If u had the faith to move the mountain you wouldn’t because you would understand why it was there to big in with and in it’s place it be perfect you would never move it. Love for self comes from within.